Astral Projection

I stood there, watching the waves wash away the shore. For a moment, a slight breeze cradled my senses and brought them into a place in time. I could still hear the laughs of those hearts who were blessed by such a sight. There I saw two people take their vows of love in defiance of time. There I saw clouds encircle them, spreading the warmth of the summer sun, assuring them of an unshaken strength through the coming years. There I saw them, with all the promises of an unending dedication, devotion, commitment and love for one another. There I saw them. Then everything stopped - a fragment of a second seemingly stretched to eternity, as I fall back into a vertigo of unredeemed images that pulls me back against my volition.

Unending.

The Real Joker

Life is unpredictable most of the time, and things usually come unexpected. You are left then to decide on what will be your next move, whether to embrace or resist. These past days, I have seen a couple of unexpected things-things that should have had never come. And though I may go against these with such futility, the inevitability of their manifestations are, to me, as bright as the noonday sun. I find myself amused in disbelief. If this happened way back then, it would been a different story.

Life really has quite a sense of humor.

An Ode To Yesterday

Once you've been my only memory of time
A time when everything was almost mine
To you I gave the very essence of my sacrifice
...In you, I was bounded and bounded I remained

Alas, the unending cries of change came
and I no longer breathed to even cry for your name
For this soul has gathered the fullness of its strength
...From you, I moved on and moving I remained

Am I the same as the seasons that come?
Am I your solace from the place you are from?
For you to haunt and fill with your emptiness
...Against you, I fought and fighting I remained

For you are only a figment of a past
From which I broke free, and free I am at last
Tomorrow and today I will cherish from now
...For you have passed, never to remain.

Refuse, Resist

I usually catch her glimpses from time to time, and I wonder what might the things behind those glances. I, for one, though, will be the first to resist her charm, not because of me not liking her, but because of what I have become and what I am right now - someone who is not yet ready to take any commitments for now. If I would force myself to such, the only thing that I would be able to do is to hurt her.

At present, I'm happy about the way things turned out for her, finding both a love and an inspiration.

Dimsum

There was really something about her when we had a chat. She asked me about my YM status. She asked me about some interesting things. She was more casual than normal. The most interesting point in our discussion was when she told me that she never had anyone else after we broke up roughly ten years ago. Now that was something. The love we had was a young love - she was my first, and I was hers too. We were young, not fully aware of the implications that our relationship had. Whether we were right or wrong, it doesn't matter during that time. We both loved each other. It was me and her against the world, and it felt good to have fought for it and held on until we have to give up. Her smiles are my earliest memories of love and being loved.

As I look back, I feel deeply honored and privileged to have shared a love like hers. I really don't know what awaits for the both us along the way : will we cross paths again or we're meant for separate ways. I'm just delighted to hear from her again.

Drifters

I guess this was the way it was meant to be for us since the beginning, and even in that short span of time, we shared something that we could almost say "eternal". As sure as the tide washes away the shore, are the things that change inevitably. In time, our hearts will let us know where we were right and where we wrong , and why should be part ways and leave a love that we grew to care and treasure.

But for now, we are just islands, slowly drifted apart, separated by the ever-changing waters of the seasons. In time, our hearts will teach us where to go.

Wishful Thinking

She reminded me of myself more than a decade ago. Yeah, ten years have gone by. Ten years..and I am sure it will still be the same scenario as before - I'll be frozen stiff in front of her.

I called her on her birthday, exchanged a few words. All but a few words to someone that I used to admire most. And that admiration extends even until now.

I thought she was getting married soon until she said she won't be for the time being. As always, things are complicated, and I don't want to complicate things more. I just wished I was able to tell her things that I wanted her to know ten years ago. I've grown stronger for the last ten years but I really don't know if I even have the strength to tell her the words I wanted her to hear.

I am just glad that we're good friends now, even at this very distance. I hope the best for her for the coming years.