Before the Plunge

As I await for the summon, I contemplate on life and the battles that we need to face. Somehow, deep inside me I know at some point during the coming fight, all the odds are against me - I know I will surely lose. For once I realize that I have to try and learn from this fight, so I may learn my weaknesses and my limits. Somehow, I have to lose this fight so I can win other battles. It is not in the defeats that we crumble, but it is in such defeats that we learn to stand-up and grow stronger. And if either by divine intervention or by chance I may win the day, I stand proud and honored, that for once in my life, I've faced each day with a war cry - It is not mine, but only His will be done. This is my resolve.

LOLZZZZZ!!!!

At last a guy has taken the time to write this all down. Finally, the
guys' side of the story.

We always hear "the rules" from the female side. Now here are the
rules from the male side. Please note.. these are all numbered "1" ON PURPOSE!


1. Men are NOT mind readers.

1. Learn to work the toilet seat.
You're a big girl. If it's up, put it down.
We need it up, you need it down.
You don't hear us complaining about you leaving it down.

1. Sunday sports. It's like the full moon. Let it be.

1. Shopping is NOT a sport.
And no, we are never going to think of it that way.

1. Crying is blackmail.

1. Ask for what you want.
Let us be clear on this one:
Subtle hints do not work!
Strong hints do not work!
Obvious hints do not work!
Just say it!

1. Yes and No are perfectly acceptable answers to almost every question.

1. Come to us with a problem only if you want help solving it. That's
what we do. Sympathy is what your girlfriends are for.

1. A headache that lasts for 17 months is a Problem. See a doctor.

1. Anything we said 6 months ago is inadmissible in an argument.
In fact, all comments become null and void after 7 Days.

1. If you won't dress like the Victoria's Secret girls, don't Expect us
to act like soap opera guys.

1. If you think you're fat, you probably are.Don't ask us.

1. If something we said can be interpreted two ways and one of the ways
makes you sad or angry, we meant the other one.

1. You can either ask us to do something
Or tell us how you want it done.Not both.
If you already know best how to do it, just do it yourself.

1. Whenever possible, Please say whatever you have to say during
commercials.

1. Christopher Columbus did NOT need directions and neither do we.

1. ALL men see in only 16 colors, like Windows default settings.
Peach, for example, is a fruit, not A color. Pumpkin is also a fruit. We
have no idea what mauve is.

1. If it itches, it will be scratched. We do that.

1. If we ask what is wrong and you say "nothing," We will act like
nothing's wrong.We know you are lying, but it is just not worth the hassle.

1. If you ask a question you don't want an answer to, expect an answer
you don't want to hear.

1. When we have to go somewhere, absolutely anything you wear is
fine.Really.

1. You have enough clothes.

1. You have too many shoes.

1. I am in shape. Round IS a shape!

1. Thank you for reading this.
Yes, I know, I have to sleep on the couch tonight;
But did you know men really don't mind that? It's like camping.

In Silence

If there are things still left unspoken, what would those words be? If there are thoughts still left unheard, what would those be?

There was a strange feeling when I pushed the SEND button. I thought that maybe it wouldn't hurt to send a greeting on a special day. Though every part of me relentlessly urged me not to push the button, I still did. What's left of my humanity told me to do so. I never expected a hint-of-a-promise-of a reply..until my phone sounded.

I guess a reply was enough, then a second came, and I thought it was too much. Silence was my reply, even until now. So many times in my life that I gave in to what my heart desired, until that very moment that I hesitated to reply.

Fact is, if there are words left unspoken until now, I utter them...in silence.

IronMan

At some point in time, you stop and realize how time went so fast. I could never imagined how things went and have gone for the last five years of my life. Many things changed while others did not. When I look at it, it is so overwhelming that it was just years ago that I decided to make a great sacrifice, never thinking that such would all be in vain in the end, or that for some reason that I still can't explain, that sacrifice was meant for something else.

I have seen many ironies in my life, and these ironies taught me how to understand things, be patient and be forgiving. I believe I am bound to witness such ironies, and this, in turn, makes the very essence of things, ironic.

Embodiment of Chaos

There was something in the air. A kind of thought or probably a hint of something coming. I can't really tell anything about it. All I know is that each day is countdown. Somehow, I know something will happen. All these chaotic thoughts all went awry, and the only thing that I can do is to pick up the trail.

Coke Float

I wonder what words would I say to you if ever you're here in front of me - when the time comes that we would actually meet again after all this time, and what would you say to me. As we sip our favorite drink, I imagine what would we talk about, unless we would be so dumbfounded when we finally see each other that we can't even try to speak. Or will we just say our usual "hello's" and "how are you's". I imagine you smiling, those smiles that I haven't seen for so long. I wonder how will it feel to look at you in the eye, while in the back of my mind I'll be thinking of you as someone that I used to devote my life with.

I wonder if we would talk about the good old times, of what we had before, those crazy antics and experiences, of the places we've been, of the people we met and knew, of the plans we used to be fond of, and even about how we went crazy, spreading ketchup on both our faces with fries...and I wonder how would it feel to laugh and talk about these things again. I wonder if we would give each other a look in the eye, asking why things will never be the same again.

Sadly, we won't be able to talk about these things. Someone will be waiting for you outside, and you will need to leave as he is waiting anxiously. Time was never really on our side ever since, so why should we protest. I wonder the "sorry's" we would say to each other, and finally wishing each other the best in life. I imagine you leave, never looking back.

And as I make my last sip from my almost empty drink, I look beyond the glass pane and assured myself of one thing : there are other drinks out there worthy of my time.