After A While

I was really tired last night. Came home around 10 then have to walk all the way to church to attend the Singles’ practice. Hopefully we’ll be able to finish the songs and the presentation as well before

Last night, I had a rare chance to jam pop songs with some of my friends. It was really a relief. Somehow being able to play those songs helped to lessen the stress last night. It also gave me a new energy to play my guitar again to a level that is closer to what I was able to play before. I really miss the way I played before, and last night, I caught a mere glimpse of it. I am surprised that I could still do such after a long while.

I Ain't Spidey

Time goes by and I always wonder what my life would be if I hadn’t left my country roughly 3 years ago. I left for a reason anyway : to start earning so that , by God’s will and grace, I can start a family on my own. But times have changed, so people did – and though I may forever have lost the reason why I left in the first place, I still stayed, now for the reason of supporting my sister’s education. Right now, I am quite satisfied with my life as a bachelor. Not worried about getting home late and no worries about being monitored closely by someone. All the luxuries of bachelorhood, I may say, is what I have now.

If I decided to stay back last Christmas, I wouldn’t have had this chance of working and supporting my family, especially now that my father came back home for good. Great bachelorhood comes with great responsibility.

From This Moment

I think that this is one of the few songs that men would really like their brides-to-be to sing for them. This is, as I may call it, the bride's song to her groom. I've seen it many times when I attend a wedding ceremony, but more often than not, it is the official female wedding singer, not the bride, who sings it for the groom. I wonder if the bride is really 'in' for the song.

Few people can appreciate the lyrics of a song, and even fewer can appreciate the fusion of the theme with the melody. For me, this song speaks truly of trust, not submission; of dedication, not obsession; and love, not blindness. I truly believe that of all the people in a wedding ceremony, the bride truly is, the central figure. It is her day it is her moment. For a man to hear his bride sing this song out of love and not out of necessity, it is truly a privilege and an honor.


Anyway,no more headtrips.

Pour Some Sugar On Me

At times, you cross paths with people, and they slowly become part of your daily life. You are happy being with this person, you feel that both of you somehow 'got it'. At that point when you're almost ready for something, the dark side rears its ugly head. Different personalities emerge and differences clash. It is hard to know at times you're not always understood , your words misinterpreted and you're not given a chance to explain your side. More often than not, you find yourself struggling to understand and adapt to these intricacies, but no matter how hard you try, you realize that such feat is futile because, like they say, 'it takes two to tango' - there's no sense in pursuing things if the other doesn't want to cooperate and come into an agreement of some sort. Sometimes you have to know when to stop , especially if you don't want to hurt someone and, of course, yourself.

I am quite sad to know this, and, for once, I am just glad that I realized this as early as possible. That is, it is better to know this beforehand than to acknowledge it when it is too late. I am just glad that I didn't cross that "thin red line". I know I've said things that I didn't meant which hurt the person and I am really sorry. I really do.I just hope and pray that God will find a way for her to find solace, and for us to be good friends again.

Nevertheless, I will forever be a friend no matter what happens. For now, I could use some sweets. There's too much bitterness lately.

I'll Give It a Shot

I saw Kuya Mag's sample photo on the upcoming K4J activity and I really liked it especially the theme. Whose idea was that anyway? Lolz. Anyway I think I'll give photography a try. I'll prove, once and for all, that you don't need to have uber-priced and much-hyped equipment just to make a photograph that stands out among the rest.

Mark my words.

Call Me Old School

I miss old school music. I miss jamming out with the old tunes - tunes that really rock. I miss playing the way I used to play guitar during live performances. I miss the way I play power chords, hearing the "chug" sound while I palm-mute every grain of distortion. I miss the way I shred not caring what the bassist or vocalist might say or react. I miss the sound of the double bass. I miss the sound of a twin guitar/keyboard solo. I miss a lot of things.

Some people might criticize me for this since I am already playing Christian music, and this thought of mine might manifest that I wanna play 'worldly music' as they see it. Personally, Christian music requires one to be disciplined, prim, conservative and quite frankly, you have to observe proper manners. Even the most "rocking" type of Christian music that we play at the church are played in a way that is 'ear-friendly' to most people in the church - played in a way that "people will like it" or the way it is played from the album. Moreover, the music is often controlled by what other musicians want to hear - something which is really kind of sad at times. I am not saying that Christian music is not fulfilling. I prefer it to be a worship music for those who want to be inspired and be closer to God. I see it where it fits in every Christian's life - a food for the soul, a way for us to connect to Him.

But I am not a hypocrite, and by where I stand, I believe that every creature made by God has the right to use and exercise what God gave it as long as it is for His glory and no one is harmed and nothing is compromised. Maybe it was in my upbringing as a musician that I tend to look for the technicality and musicianship that are exhibited in many songs that fall beyond the limits of Christian music - and to say that it is evil to appreciate and use your God-given talent in such songs is, for me, totally "un-Christian" to an extent.

The Great Halo-Halo Project

Of all the foods that I want during the summer,halo-halo would be the very first on my list, and last night I had one really delicious.It has been like a year since I ate halo-halo, and for some reason, last night was something memorable.

I really don't know if last night was a date or some sort. We just enjoyed having conversations, had talks about life and what-not.I found out many things about her, and also with myself - that I felt comfortable talking if I don't have to hesitate and restrain myself in saying what is in my mind. I have been used to measure every word before I speak, but I just found out that it is not necessary to be that rigid as long as you know how to say words properly.

The only problem last night was that I wasn't able to go to our church rehearsal. My fault,I was careless. Next time, I'll definitely make sure these "halo-halo" things
don't get mixed up with my responsibilities.

Paradigm Shift

As time goes on, I often feel that life is too short, and though I'm not even halfway in my life right now, I realize that life is not always about fixing problems. Rather, it is about discovering new things, taking chances, and most of all, being happy.

I somehow pity myself during the difficult times that I had just a few months ago. But then again, I know that there's always a reason why things happen, and though it may forever be hidden from me, I know that God will never leave me, as I cross the many roads of life.

I look ahead as I face new horizons in life.

The F Chord

It was fun last night.

Though I was tired even before the rehearsals, I really made it a point to keep up with the stressful task of arranging songs for each singer. The rehearsal last night was for the Single's Fellowship on June, where selected Single members will be singing songs in "unplugged" mode, so to speak. I think I've gotten so used to electric guitars that I can barely hold a F chord on an acoustic guitar. I'm afraid I have to get back in strengthening my arms and wrists again.

After the activity ,I was totally drained of energy, let alone being able to stand up and walk. I thank God for giving me the energy to endure the whole evening. To God be the glory!

Curves

There was something about her last evening, and though I did my best to hide my admiration, I can't help but manifest myself in the most subtle ways possible. Oh, before I forget - I love how those tight jeans fit.

Under A Glass Moon

Something interesting is happening to me during the past weeks : it would be me on the phone, talking to someone, until my phone credits run out. I have never been so careless, and quite frankly, I'm enjoying it.

Somehow, I should put a stop to it, not because of the money that I am spending, but because of the fact that I don't usually keep track of the time while having conversations. Instead of sleeping early, I now sleep late. It's like sitting under a glass moon - time just stops and the world transforms into a hazy, twilight dreamscape.

Inspired

If there's something that's making everyday exciting for me, that would be the thought of seeing someone at the end of the day. Maybe in time, I will learn to appreciate that more and more, and try to compare it with how I dealt each day during the last couple of months.

Maybe, it won't hurt to be get inspired from time to time.

"Phony Tale"

At a glance, she might look like one of those ordinary girls around. But after a closer look, she actually isn't.

I had a rare chance of getting acquainted with her last evening, together with some of my friends. I discovered a lot about her, and it didn't take long to talk comfortably with her. It wasn't long after when we found ourselves having conversations on the phone about how I am annoyed about how often does she fix her hair. You could almost say that she has that "bubbly" persona, someone whom you can get along easily. She is who she is right there in front of my face...and I've never been so interested.

One thing for sure : I wanna know her more.

Calendar Method

It was a nice weekend. Got plenty of rest and sleep. Wasn't able to jog yesterday evening but its okay.

Chichan visited us last night, showed us pictures of her vacation with Ivan (I hope Ivan has finally recovered so he can play bass again). I saw the excitement and happiness in her eyes, and for a moment I thought of how good it would be to get a vacation from time to time. I miss home. I miss the simple and exciting life back in my country. And now my father is already back, I miss my family more and more.

I'd really like to count the days in the calendar until my vacation, and I actually start to count when the "-ber" months come. But it's still to soon. No worries. I bet its worth the wait.

You're joking, right?

Life is full of surprises. The unexpected comes in the most inappropriate time. I guess this makes life more interesting. The fact that I got an email from her yesterday confirms that life's jokes are the funniest. It annoys me to the point of exaggeration.

I was surprised about the things she said. As I read between the lines, I know she's trying to tell me something, and that's what I'm afraid of. It takes a lot of courage for someone to say those words. She might have eaten a lot of pride for all I know.

Nonetheless, I took it as a friend, not as an ex-bf. I told her that what she and her bf is going through is just normal for those who are just starting a relationship. They can solve those problems as long as they keep the love burning. There was never even a slight throb in my arteries when I said those words. Honestly, I felt totally normal. Its funny because I never imagined giving her those kinds of advises before. Life ,as I said, has quite a sense of humor.

I replied as a friend, and no longer someone who expects a hint of a promise of hope of some sort for things to get back the way they should be. I have moved on ever since that fateful day, and if by any chance or by some divine cause that we should cross paths again, I'll put all my trust to God to know what's best for me.

Yes Man!

Whew, it has been a while since my last post - AGAIN! It has been a trend . Really, work is killing me so I haven't got time to post here.

I have been working out these past weeks, been jogging during late evenings, messing around with dumbbells, changing my diet and what-not. I just realized the importance of keeping fit and staying healthy. Heck, I even got myself to get used of eating apples in the morning - something that I never thought possible.

I'm slowly getting rid of the hate that I felt for someone this passed week. I pray to God that I would finally get rid of it. I also pray for my friend's safety on his vacation with his wife and with their kid.

I felt inspired by the Yes Man movie from Jim Carey. For now, I'd just let myself "float" for a while. I'll try to do something "really unexpected" these coming days. I need to surprise myself once in a while, for a change. Good luck to me.

Noemi

I recently had a very revealing encounter with someone. I used to think of her as someone who's not that friendly, someone who won't participate in things such as having fun in games or what-not. Heck, I even thought that she might not smile that often. But I was wrong. Behind that seriousness in her DJ-like voice and the "idea" of her being that so frigid and unwilling to share her time, she proved to be a good team player and as someone who can get along with teasing and bullying. For what its worth, I admire her for being a true Christian and a real practitioner of the faith.

I just wished that Joel had more patience in dealing with her, understood her more,and appreciated who she truly is despite of her being already engaged with someone. She is really a nice and wonderful person. I hope the best for her and her future.

Oh, This Sucks

I just had 2 posts for the whole month of April? Was I that busy? Darn. Have to be in my Yoda mode again.

That Something

It was a great and long weekend for me and I really enjoyed it. I went to the Single's retreat last Friday and it was fun being with my fellow Christians who came all for His glory. I had a rare chance of wearing my colorful beach polo lolz. Also, I was able to test my PC for the upcoming recording sessions with Praisehearted team. I'm so glad it worked.

These past weeks I have been given some hints of something, but as of now I am not ready for that something. Maybe in time I will.