What I Need

There are things in life that we can never understand. We want things to happen the way we want them to, but maybe because of some divine understanding that we may never comprehend, things just don’t go the way we want them to.

I have loved a lady with all my heart since I fell in love with her. To prepare for our future, I left her with a promise that I will be back to return to her and finally be with her. But people change and so is their character. There are people that you just can’t understand – that you can’t satisfy. Maybe I just loved the wrong person.

My ex wishes me to talk to her, after all that she’s done – after all that has happened, and though she has hurt me, part of me tells me that I should give ANOTHER chance. But another part of me says that I cannot give anymore – that I cannot trust her now. She was able to hurt me then, and she can do it again. I want to finally say to myself that it was a lost cause, and that were destined to follow separate paths. She is destined for someone else, and I too am destined for someone who deserves my love. I have to thank her for being part of my life and that she showed me many things. I have learned so much from her.

What I need right now is to totally forget about the past and look forward for what’s ahead of me. I cannot dwell within the past anymore.

I need to heal.
I need to live again.