Here I Go Again

I was able to talk to my ex yesterday on the phone. I felt a sense of melancholy listening to her voice again. She told me that she parted ways with her bf. It didn’t last long.

Our talk was less formal, maybe because I didn’t want to sound like I am serious. But then again, talking with your ex has always been serious. She explained to me that it wasn’t her who sent the SMS message that ended our relationship. It was her ex-bf. I was wondering why she didn’t reply herself when they’re not with each other, so I may not have decided to leave in the first place. It was, in a sense, a matter of miscommunication.

So here I go again, wondering if I can give it another chance. I am such a stubborn man.

Now I am torn between two choices : I leave my job here, risk all to uncertainty, go back and take another chance with her (after all that has happened), or I stay here, be secured, and wait for another love.

Because deep in my heart, I still love her.