To Live and Love Again

It has been more than a year (or so) since my last blog. I never bothered to write blogs before and, to be honest, I think that I’m only starting to join the bandwagon. I feel that though my writing ‘prowess’ may not be at par with many others to join the blog arena, blogging might give me a chance to know myself better…something that I can ponder on when I am old and weary.

I just came back from a lengthy vacation in the Philippines. I went to spend the holidays with my mother and sister, and with it are high hopes that I would be able to fix a relationship that I carelessly left behind. In that relationship, I tried to save anything that I thought I left behind, only to find out that there wasn’t anything left. I tried to win a heart back again, to fail in the end. I tried to win a battle that started years back when I found love. I tried to justify my reason of leaving someone for the sake of preparing for the future only to find out in the end that securing one is not enough.

Now I’m back at work, trying to start a new life ahead of me, carrying on with all the burden and consequences of my past mistakes. For now, I’ll just let myself drift to where life brings me, carefully threading each path so I may again find the reason to live and love again.